Crap day off.

Arguing with daughter, depressed about what happened last year, no money, being coerced into going to some TV show thing with a "friend", overworked to point of being dangerous at work. I'm feeling a bit blue right now. I can't see a way to solve anything. Everything I do just seems to make things worse. I'm waiting to hear from QARANC about my full time application but I can't see that panning out. I'm too old and unfit. I can get fit, but it just takes longer when you're 40! I'm fitter now than I was in my 20s, but that's not saying much. I need to get through the second part of TA training yet, and that's the tough bit. Got a couple of months to up my fitness. Need to do more load carrying. PSI says twice a week. I'll put some times in my diary; that should encourage me to go. In the meantime I'm going to as many mil fitness classes as I can. Missing tonight's because of this bloody TV show thing. Same friend wants to have a drinking session on Monday; if that happens then I'll be missing another one. I think I'll be ducking out of that one. I can't afford to be spending money on stuff like that. I'll think up some excuse.