Ah, bring on February!

I've been paid today! Oh joy! I checked my account before going to work this morning. The payday loan hadn't gone out; I hope they hadn't called for it before my wages went in... stupid of them if they did! I told them my pay date, it's up to them after that. I've done a bit of shopping, put petrol in my car and feel a whole lot better now, even though I know I'll be skint this month too. I'm prepared though; I can deal with it. There aren't any social engagements planned until after the next pay day so that's one good thing.

I've been back at work for a couple of days having had 11 days off. I didn't do much during the 11 days due to no cash, but it was nice having some time off. It was a lovely shift today; relatively quiet and the ward wasn't full. I ended up with just 3 patients so needless to say they were well cared for during my 10 hour shift!

I've been spending way too much time on Facebook because there is a guy on there who I have my eye on... same old story. I'm so lame. I really need to restart my army training because I need a new focus. I've been talking with an army friend of mine on the phone this evening and she's going through some traumas in her personal life so we both could do with concentrating on something we're doing for ourselves and will also benefit our physical and mental health at the same time. We're both still waiting to hear from our staff sergeant but we're mithering him constantly! He'll get sick of us eventually!

I'm actually feeling quite positive about the future now. I survived January (financially). It's going to be a squeeze but I'll get through February too. I just have to sign the NHSP forms to get on the bank to be able to extra shifts and earn extra money. I (hopefully) have army training coming up; good for the soul and the pocket! Things are going to get better for me. I'm not much liking being on my own so much though. I've had a taster recently of how good it can be to have some male company (and I'm not just talking about sex!) and I don't want to be on my own anymore. It's sad, but true. I'm lonely. It's a work in progress. I've decided to not just settle for anyone though; that would be easy. I want to love someone, and to be loved in return. He's out there. And I'm looking.